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Ramblings of a Microsoft Solution Architect

  • For those of you that just want the answer to this question without having to read the whole story, here it is:  GET LOST!

    Now here’s the story:

    Wednesday was not a good day for me.  I had some Italian food and went “swing dancing
    the night before.  When I got home, my stomach was not feeling good so I
    went to sleep.  When I woke up the next morning, I couldn’t go more than
    5 feet away from the toilet before having to go back towards it.  I then
    called into work and said that I wouldn’t be coming in.  I then crawled back
    into bed hoping for the pain to go away.

    At 2PM I was awakened by room service who wanted to come in and clean
    the room.  Since I was in a dazed mood I said sure and thought that walking
    outside might do me some good since my stomach stopped aching.

    Figuring it would be a waste to spend a day in Paris and not exploring,
    even though I was sick, I decided to go to the Louvre.  When I got there,
    it was closed because the workers were on strike.  Of all the dumb luck.

    Since I was feeling weakened by my more unforunate events, I decided to
    go back to the hotel in hopes that the french maids were done with my room. 
    Not knowing where I was, I took random turns knowing that you’re always 5
    minutes away from a metro station in Paris.  My first turn lead me to a very
    interesting Metro station.  (picture coming soon)  I walked towards it and
    thought it was very cool.  Behind that station was a historical monument. 
    Once again, very cool.  At this point, my curiosity was starting to overpower
    my weakness.  Behind that was a lavish garden with kids playing soccer and
    perfectly aligned trees.  I kept going straight towards what looked like
    another shopping district and ended up pretty much a dead end.  And at the
    dead end was a statue that’s probably older than dirt.

    So, the moral of the story is:  When you’re in Europe, the best thing
    to do is:  GET LOST!  Why?  Because you’ll always find something interesting. 
    And even if it’s a dead end, there’ll be a 500 year old statue of a naked
    woman there.  You can’t lose.

    I was also approached by a pimp last night.  It’s the 2nd time in a week.  What gives?

    Cheers, love and humanity.  Tommy.

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  • It
    has taken me a while to get over the homesickness, frustration over how to
    handle life and all of it’s issues; however, I think that I’m over the big
    hump.  Thanks a lot Mary, for the wonderful coaching.

    Saturday was the first day for me to go out and fully explore Paris in
    all of it’s beauty.  And, as luck would have it, it rained.  However, I was
    not going to let that bring me down.  I donned my coat and umbrella and strided
    on our of the Hotel Mecure and to the Arc de Triumph via the Metro.  Standing
    in front of it, gives the impression that the entire city of Paris was built
    to accompany the Arc.  Outside of the huge circle, where the Arc lives, is
    a driving area  where the streets which are perfectly symmetrical, aligned
    and beam from the middle like a perfectly cut pizza.  I did not go up, because
    I knew that I would rather wait until I could see it on a sunny day.  Strolling
    down the Champs d’Ellises, I bought a French shirt, and some CD’s  (One from
    my favorite French rapper, MC Solaar.  Yes, I have picked up even the music
    here.)  I then trotted over to the Eiffel Tower, where I decided again to
    wait until it was a clear day to visit the top of.  I then walked around
    aimlessly, trying to get lost and find some more beautiful sights until I
    grew tired and headed home.

    Here is where the loss of being alone really hit me.  I walked into my
    hotel room, delighted that I had seen all of these amazing sites, but sad
    that I had noone to share it with.  I had also been contemplating the relationship
    with Terri quite a bit during my walk and I realized what I really wanted.  I wanted Terri
    walking with me, arm in arm, as we toured the Eiffel Tower.  I wanted to
    kiss the woman I’m tell everyone about in the “Jewel of Europe”.  I wanted
    to spend time in one of the world’s most romantic city with “My bandcamp
    girl”.  However, I had hurt her earlier in the relationship, and the wounds
    were still fresh, so there was nothing I could do.  After getting on the
    phones and talking to my mom and Mary (Thanks girls!), I was reinvigorated
    and decided to do something I had never done before.  Go to a caberet!  Moulin
    Rouge already had their last show, so I opted for the one in the brochure,
    Crazy Horse.

    What threw me for a loop was the number of Asian couples and women that
    were there.  George told me that he went to Moulin Rouge with his family,
    so I figured it wasn’t too raunchy.  The experience was somewhat erotic,
    but I actually enjoyed the magician the most.  Overall, if you’re looking
    for an interesting experience, check one out, but it’s not meant as a “peep
    show” or anything of the such.

    Since I took the last show, the Metro was closed so I had to either walk
    home or take a taxi.  “It’s Paris!  Go walk!”, I told myself.  So, I popped
    in a CD in my player, and trotted down the Parisian roads at 2AM.  That’s
    when it hit me:

    • I’m in Paris.
    • I’ve got friends and family supporting me here.
    • The hotel and food is paid for!
    • I’m listening to Daft Punk, a great dance band.
    • Life is good.

    At that point, life looked different.  Rather than trying to rush home
    because it was 2AM and I was in a foreign city at night, I took my good ol’
    time.  First, I walked to the Eiffel Tower and saw it at night.  (The lights
    were off.)  Then I moseyed on home, not caring if I was going the right way
    sometimes, and many times I wasn’t.

    Along the way, I walked by a homeless person sleeping in the doorstop
    of a restaurant.  Being that I was feeling like I was on top of the world,
    I figured that my heart couldn’t go by ignoring that.  And the more I walked
    away from him, the louder the thoughts in my head got.  So, I turned around
    and gave him the change in my pocket.  I then walked back home some more
    and realized that for as good as life has been treating me, about $2 was
    not enough of a gift to “pay it forward”.  So, after trying to push those
    thoughts for a few minutes that I should just keep on walking, I turned around
    again and gave him everything I had.  This life has been too generous for
    me to not give SOMETHING back everywhere I go.  I then walked away with a
    clear conscience, knowing that he would use that money more preciously than
    I.

    I arrived near home around 3AM and since I was hungry, I stopped by the
    Hippopatamus, a jive open till 5AM.  I definitely wasn’t prepared for what
    was inside.

    Inside the Hippo, you can tell it’s a busy place.  And at 3AM, the line
    was long.  I waited around, trying to keep myself busy and trying not to
    pay too much attention to the punk kids that were occassionally yelling at
    each other.  However, I couldn’t tell if they were doing so jokingly or not. 
    (They’re speaking in French.)  It wasn’t until an older lady who was behind
    me told one of them something and then he went up to her right in her face
    and I swear he was cursing her out.  The 6′ black bouncer didn’t pay much
    mind to them until they started duking it out.  At first it was fairly contained
    until one of them kicked the other into some of the other tables and shattered
    the light fixture.  They kept going at it to the point where they threw treys
    and glasses at each other.  One even tried breaking a glass bottle to hit
    another with.  Me and the old lady ran to the back of the restaurant, hiding,
    but still watching with a curious eye.  Well, the bouncer threw them out
    and the police came.  The manager told us that were waiting in line to leave
    because it was closed.  Still hungry, but not wanting to completely leave
    the action, I went across the street to a windowed area.

    Inside, they were playing “Bohemian Rhaposody”.  Amused that they were
    playing American music, I started mouthing the words, “Scatamoosh!  Scatamoosh! 
    Will you do the Van Damn Go!”  I looked around and saw a guy mouthing the
    words too.  We smiled and I thought it was funny and then sat down.  I then
    turned around and he made a motion for me to come sit down by him.  I figured,
    “What the heck.”

    I walked over to him and asked, “Tu parle englais?”  *shakes his hand*
    “A little”  So, I sat down and had a really interesting conversation with
    him.  Apparently, he has been all over the world, Pakistan, US, London, etc
    and is a teacher.  (A very social one too.)  He spoke to me in the English
    he knew and I spoke to him in the French I knew.  The only thing that bothered
    me was that the cautious part of my brain was working overtime.  “When will
    he stiff me with the bill?”  “What if he puts something in my drink?”  “How
    do I know that he’s not a psycho-killer?”  However, I kept giving up those
    thoughts so that I could enjoy myself in this new position I found myself
    in.  After a while, said he was leaving and got up and paid his share of
    the bill.  I said goodbye and thought to myself, “Wow.  That was definitely
    interesting.”

    So, there you have it folks.  Life for me is never boring.  Nor will I
    allow it to be.  It’s too precious.  It’s too short.  Live it up.

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  • Last
    night, I had dinner with some friends who went exploring Rome at the same
    time Hemang and I went exploring Siena.  On Tuesday morning, we had heard
    that they were still stuck in Italy, because they didn’t have their Passports. 
    To further complicate the matters, one of the guys is Pakistan. (This’ll
    give you a small taste of the rest of the story.) On Wednesday morning, we
    were really worried about when they were going to come back.  And on Thursday
    morning, we were releaved that everyone was ok.  You can check out the entire
    story at:  Your Passport, and why you should never leave a country without it. (Especially at these times and if you’re Pakastani.)

    This weekend, I plan to explore Paris.  I’ve been living here for about
    2 weeks and I haven’t been able to explore this place much.  I’ll take care
    of the big attractions, like the Arc, Tower, Versailles, etc.  Also, it might
    be the first time I go touring by myself.  It will be a new and interesting
    adventure.

    Even though it’s still October, I keep thinking ahead towards X-mas and how I would so enjoy having Terri and my family come visit me in France.  It would truly be a great experience.

    A bientot!

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  • This morning, I came back from my trip to Italy.

    It was an interesting, frustrating, tiring, majesticly beautiful, and bad luck weekend.

    We started off by taking a train to Florence, where Hemang and I talked
    to this half French/Italian guy who was very cool; later joined by a group
    of female travellers looking to explore Italy. I couldn’t sleep that well,
    (surprisingly enough) so I went to the dining car and wrote a letter to Terri, who I began to miss very much. When we left the train, we jumped to a bus to Siena.

    Siena was exquisite! The hotel right in front of the bus stop was “The
    Jolly Hotel”, where Hemang and I dropped our bags and showered. We then
    had lunch in the Piazza while marvelling at the wonderful view. We began
    exploring the “Piazza” (an open area in about the size of a city block) and
    “Domo” and walked to the top of the Piazza’s Great tower for what is called
    the best view of Italy. I started to carve my initials in the bell at the
    top, when a German couple asked me if I thought that the bell needed that.
    Shocked, amazed and embarrassed, I stopped. (If you see the letter “T” in
    the hanging part of the bell in this area, that’s ME!) When we got down,
    we decided to join the people lying down in the piazza and took a nap on
    the bricks. Rested, we went back to the hotel to prepare ourselves for sundown.

    At 7PM in Siena, something amazing happens. Everyone comes out to walk
    on the major rode. EVERYONE! And then they come out dressed in their most
    fashionable attire. Men dressed in suits. Women dressed as fashion models.
    It was like a mile long runway with everyone showing off. Truly amazing!
    Hemang and I stuck around till about 1AM chatting and having some of the
    best gelato (Ice Cream) in the world!

    For the next day, we were going to explore San Gimangino, another small
    hill town in Italy. That city was on top of a hill, which offered a truly
    majestic site. We did some shopping, eating and exploring. That’s where
    it all fell apart. See: “All I want is to go to Paris…is that so hard?

    It’s now 1AM, and I’m at Nortel, waiting for Hemang to finish his stuff,
    so we can go to bed. We’re waiting for someone else to finish up over here,
    so that he can drive us back because the train workers are on strike and
    there aren’t that many trains going to Montparnarse.

    Ciao!

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  • Yesterday, I discovered my favorite part of this buisness trip so far: The laundry service.

    Hemang and I are planning to go to Italy this weekend, so he recommended
    getting all my laundry done so that I can pack it. So, I put my dirty laundry
    in two bags and brought them downstairs. When I came in from work yesterday,
    there they were: Bright, Shiny and New. My underware was neatly folded
    with tags, my socks were matched together by pair. My shirts were even ironed
    and clipped to a cardboard square! My jeans were on a hanger and my “travel
    pants”…the pants that have seen more cities that some people’s luggage,
    with all of it’s holes, loose threads and crinkled pockets were ironed and
    maybe even starched! The only thing I could say that even came close to
    how I was feeling was, “Wow! That’s worth the price of admission!” I would
    definitely go on more buisness vacations if it meant having someone else
    do my laundry and fold and iron it like that!

    Other than that, things are really shaky. My roommate situation is sticky right now and Terri
    sent me an email which has got my world in a swirl. I’m beginning to see
    how big of a jerk I am to people. Lots of times, I do inconsiderate stuff.
    Stuff, I’m sometimes not even aware of. Stuff, where I may have good intentions,
    but something else happens. If you’re one of those people I’ve hurt or offended,
    I apologize. And finally, the pastor’s son at my church passed away after
    fighting a lengthy illness. He was a friend of mine, close to my age, and
    the epitomy of dignity, intelligence and acceptance. The world will miss
    you, Bill Jemison IV.

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  • Yesterday was definitely and interesting day, worthy of a story. Check out: Indian Incidents for more info.

    On the train ride to work today, I realized that one month ago today,
    the WTC was attacked. It seems like such a long time ago, yet I can still
    remember standing in my living room, watching TV and seeing the second tower
    collapse on live TV.

    Material possessions come and go. Life is precious. All you have is “Now”. Live it up.

    Hemang and I are talking about going to a Depeche Mode concert tonight.
    I was hesitent at first, but since I realized that this will be a once-in-a-lifetime
    chance, I couldn’t pass it up.

    — Later —

    Depeche Mode is a no-go. Since Hemang and I are going travelling tomorrow to Italy, we’re going to take it easy tonight.

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  • Hemang
    and I bought tickets for this weekend to go to the small villas in Italy.
    I can’t wait! This is what I’ve been looking forward to…not the big cities,
    monuments and museums, but the beautiful scenery. I’m so jealous of me.
    🙂

    One mistake I made so far was to leave my Visor
    (read: My life) in the restaurant tonight. When I got home (did I say HOME?!)
    I realized this and walked back to the restaurant. I couldn’t figure out
    how to tell the doormen I forgot something, so I used a line I remembered
    from Better Off Dead – “Je
    suis tres stupid.” and made the motion of leaving something and walking
    away. The got a good laugh and directions to the bartender. I did the same
    for her after the waiter from my original table told her that I forgot my
    Visor. She laughed. I guess self-depracating humor is universal. 🙂

    I’m beginning to learn the RER and metro system. Thankfully, I’m a quick
    learner. I’m also grateful for Hemang who’s been a great help to me getting
    around and his ideas for travel inspire me. Soon, I will be adventuring
    a la Falgout.

    I saw the Eiffel Tower and Arc de Triumph for the first time last night
    while eating dunner at a really expensive restaurant in the Chanz de Lizze
    (sp?). They had people salsa dancing in the bottom of the restaurant, and
    if I knew the dance any better, I would have grabbed someone and started
    dancing. However, when I go swing dancing (I found a swing club) I will
    live it up.

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  • So! I finally made it to Paris. This is just a quick note before I head off and do some real work in Nortel. Thank you all for your support and I will keep all of your updated on my adventures. I’ve seen some interesting sites!

    Love, sunshine and disco dancing,

    -Me

    Here are some excerpts from my journal which I started on the flight to France:

    Now, for the future. Where will I go in the next 2 1/2 months? What adventures will I experience? How will I grow?

    A lot of people are afraid to fly nowadays. I completely understand their
    fear; however, I don’t share the same fear as them. As I just learned, I
    am most frightened by the sound that the airplane toilets make after those
    few seconds of silence after pressing the flush button. *Push Button* …
    ?? … Is it working? … WWWHHHOOOOSSSHHH!!!!

    I realized today that the relationship I have with my pilot is the same
    I have with my doctor. I know that I’ll hear from him in the beginning and
    in the end. However, I want as little interaction from him in between.

    Heh heh. The growth has already started, and I haven’t even touched down
    yet. I realize that I’ve chosen to remain or pretend to remain innocent
    or ignorant in certain areas of my life. In ‘Paris Inside Out’, one of the
    first things I read was: “Wisdom is acquired only through the gradual shedding
    of innocence.” So, I’ve been stunting my growth in those areas by deciding
    to stay innocent. Interesting.

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  • Every
    now and then a dream pops into the mind.  Usually, the dream is killed off
    through cynicism and resignation…”You can’t do that.”  “You don’t really
    want THAT, do you?”  “Get real.”  And sometimes, through the sheer power
    of determination and the power of committment, the dream wiggles and squirms
    it’s way out of those thoughs and into the world.

    Two dreams of mine which I gave up on a while ago are now coming true.

    • Own a house I am in love with.
    • All expenses paid travel.

    Funny, now that I look at that, I think to myself…a year ago, I didn’t
    think those were possible…ESPECIALLY at the same time.

    On May 29, 2001, I closed on my house.  It is a beautiful, split level
    house which overlooks a park, has a beautilful garden, 4 bedrooms, 2 living
    rooms, and a beautiful kitchen.

    On October 6, 2001, I am leaving for France to work there for 2 1/2 months. 
    I have no idea what to expect when I get there.  Rude French?  Not knowing
    the language as well as I would like?  Another flight disaster?

    However, I will not be deterred by any of these thoughts.  I am about
    to embark on a journey into a foreign country.  And with it, I plan to embark
    on a journey into my soul.  Who am I?  What do I want to do with my life? 
    What’s next for me?

    In the words of my best friends, Lee:  “It’s all good, baby!”

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  • So,
    This is the beginning of it all. Soon, there will be discussions about the
    trips and adventures in foreign and distant lands. (France, Cancun, Cozimel,
    Mediterranian, etc.) And then…Tommy’sTubCam.com. It all begins here.
    Stay tuned for details and drop a line if you have other suggestions!

    “If all of life’s a stage, who do I talk to about getting some better props?”

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